I don't know why I care so much for people. And I don't know why I can't let go of the friendship, friendship that I didn't really have. Why can't I let go of the things that I'm feeling, people say that I'm just paranoid. But I know I'm not.

I guess it's true that people come and go, and people change with the seasons.  But why can't I move on and why can't I let go? Why do I always get left behind? Friends means the world to me, but I guess it's not for me. I'm just not really good enough to be one.

Never shall I cry over some friends, never shall I offer a shoulder to cry on. Why am'i always the one who feels that I didn't do enough to save a relationship. Why do I always feel like a loser when one ends.

This are just some issues I have with my friends, imagine how bad it will be if I broke up with a girlfriend. Life is so cruel. I want to move on and I want to let go. All I wanted to be is a friend a good friend, but they took it the wrong way.

Is it bad to care so much, is it wrong to be nice. How could this happen to me? Why me?

I guess I'll never know what a true friendship really is, cuz I'm not good enough to be one!

God I don't know why you let these things happen to me. But I'm begging you, please help me let go, help me to move on. Help me become a strong person that I once was.

God please take this pain away, help me breath again.

Is this one of your challenges that I have to face? Will it make me a better person in the end? Is this friendship really for me? Please give me a sign! Is this friendship worth fighting for? Please help me be strong!